greenapple day again! after a weekend which feels quite long!
i just realised today is my 2nd last day of school. tmr is my last lecture! FAST!
sam and i were super surprised that it's so fast lah! like monday is the first day of the week and then we realised that it's like the last day. hahaa!
and, after the last lecture of the day today, i realised that it's my last day to meet him in school le. sad. then i very she bu de to part, but sam kept telling me to zou la zou la after the lecture, hahaha!
haha, but dun say i zhong se qing you, i also she bu de sam! (: still got her present to pass to her. haha.
tao hua xiao mei's extract, really alike what i wanna say. hahhaa! even sam thinks so too! :D
qi shi wo di yi ci jian dao ta, wo zhi you jian dao ta de bei ying.
you hao ji ci, wo dou zai xiang tong de di dian gen shi jian deng ta.
ke shi ta dou mei you chu xian..
tmr is the last day of school, i think i'll go though it's a boring two hours alone.
haha,
miss.
resuscitate my he♥rt 10:16 PM
Sunday, November 8, 2009
#1 暖星 - cyndi wang
城市里小星星
稀疏的亮晶晶
太多光吃掉他们的身影
就像我爱上你
隐没在灯海里
你眼中只看繁华的夜景
我的爱藏在你的背影里
想要笑着坚定的恒心
天黑的时候我远远陪着你
再小的闪烁也努力放光明
当有天我在夜空里面
偶尔被发现希望我眨眼
能感动你视线
想把小星星排成爱的突袭
为你的天空点缀一些惊奇
即使像流星一闪而过寂寞也情愿
不求你看见
只想为你发光永远
Listen to this song before you sleep, really very nice.
It's not a song that will make one tear when listening to it, unless that person is really emo at that time. haha! but it's like very pure kind of song. i don't really like cyndi, but i think her voice sang this song suitably well! it feels like first love, yup so it's like very pure and innocent. hahaha!
when i heard it for the first time, i have this thought of caring for someone special. haha! maybe i like it partly cos of the show ba, reminds me of dadong in the show. (love his new hairstyle!) hahaha!
:D too bad the mp3's not out yet, if not i'll post it here.
#2 很安静 - Fahrenheit
要说得多华丽
才能说出 最默契的默契
我在你身边
呼吸都沈默
你却懂我每个情绪
这世界太热闹
怎麽倾听
一颗心呼唤另一颗的声音
这世界再热闹
还好我们
刚好在这裏刚好很安静
所有感受 不用形容
已经那麽懂
所有感动是安静的心动
这世界再热闹
也没关系
this music is really nice, and it's written by tank! :D
quite different from the other songs they sang. and somemore it's of a higher pitch than usual, next time can sing in kbox! so yupppp, support them! but the words are really nice as well, can picture the song. sweet!
:D
the mp3 i had only have half of it, wanna wait for the full song!
haha, alright.
enough of my randomness!
better go study le! counting down.. 15 more days! OMG!
love's starting papers tmr, all the best! ♥
resuscitate my he♥rt 12:29 PM
nice one! i saw this video on siowai's blog, then also wanna share it!
:D my favourite hongkong actor!
p.s. he reminds me of yanshan. hahaha, i think there's a little lookalike.
resuscitate my he♥rt 10:12 AM
:DDD
shilang!
bu yao jie san ! :X
resuscitate my he♥rt 12:00 AM
Saturday, November 7, 2009
it is green again! :D
thanks. (=
the puzzle's progress! haha!
doing it whenever i have time, just for leisure!
thanks sam for the treat!
i got the childhood feel again..
bottoms up!
shuo hao le wear jackets only ytd!
but it was super hot, luckily the LT was cold enough.
anyway, the day before we went to collect our maths scripts together. and was like super scared lah. we were to collect from 9 to 10am, but instead we reached at 5min before 10am. haha! didn't wanna be there too early! then yupp, got it! i took my paper and i saw the score, even though i didn't wanna tk a look at it. sam got hers first but she didn't open up to see the score. haha.. anyway, i got 62%, at least it was much much better than what i expected. the passing mark was 30% as i mentioned before, cos of the test difficulty. so i expected to get less than 30% lehh.. but didn't expect 62%, so it's a BIG thing to me! :D hahaha. so when ppl ask how have i done, i'll say ok loh, cos to me it's good enough liao! though the average is 65%. hahaha! nvm lah, zai jie zai li! :D anyway, then sam dared not see her paper, so when she opened it, we tk a look at her score together. then when we saw the 2 digits on her paper, both of us SCREAMEDDDDD out loud lah! (i think it is the first time i scream in nus. hahaha! cos nus is not a place for screaming, unlike jss or jjc. hahaha!) we both have the same rxn lah! cos she got 62% too!!!!!! so qiao! our previous atmosphere module also got the same mcq marks! hahaha! super funny. then after we screamed, we realised that it was too loud. and dare not look into the eyes of others and faster got out of the place. hahaa! super malu, luckily greenapple not there, sure diao me one. hahaha!
ohya, talking about maths and greenapple, i got two more things to talk about. first, talk about the maths paper. i hate it when ppl ask for scores. like if you ask out of curiosity, it's ok lah. but dun ask liao then not happy lah. i admit, i did say before i expected less than 30%, but that's the truth. didn't really rmb how i get the marks anyway. cos i left alot alot of blanks! but i'm not that kind of ppl who will lie about what i've done. if i think i did well, i will say de. i wun act like i've done badly, like for what? i see no point. yah, so..yah. haha, nvm lazy to say liao.
ohya about greenapple, ytd sam and i saw his friends nv chop seat for him lah! guo fen lorh! then i thought he didn't come, but he came after that and saw his buaysong face when he realised that he has no seat. then he had to sit the next row, luckily still have space if not hurh, gotta get it from me.. hahaha! no lah juskiddin. hahaha!
ytd was another day sam & i laughed alot. cos of a guy named "excuse me", he was murmuring excuse me excuse me when he wanted to ask me a question during lecture. but with his murmurs and his body language, noone will know who is he talking to. super funny. anyway, he got this very pervertic behaviour. i dunno why, just got the creepy feeling beside him. hahaha! then we kept imitating him after the lecture. was really funny, and scary at the same time. hahaa. then sam kept mimicking weili's friend cos she felt that the way he call my name very funny, i think because of his voice lah. i think it's ok, but she just kept exaagerating the way he called me. come to think of it, i think her way she called even scary. nightmares! hahahah.
:D
anyway, ytd i went to jp to buy something. and i've gotten it! woooohooo!
and when i wanted to keep my money, my coins drop on the floor! omg, then it was like shingshingshing, very lang bei liddat. haha! that time my parents were also not with me. then feels very helpless cos i was holding my bottle, my bag and the thing i bought. omg lah. then i saw three guys walk past from the corner of my eye, and i was wondering if they can help. sian lorh. cos i've to like duck walk around to pick up my coins! but the walked away!!!!!! haha, except one of the friends helped me duck walk and pick up some of my coins, then he told his friends to wait cos someone drop coins. haha! awwww, so nice. :D kinda paiseh. haha, then i just said thank you and walked away. hahaa, then i kept praising the guy infront of my mum when i went to find them after that and told them about my lang bei de yang zi. haha..
omg 1101 results out liao! ): think i dunwanna see first. i go study first. if not ltr no mood. hahaha!
JIAYOUUUUUUU!
anyway, happy birthday to tsyr horng!:D
resuscitate my he♥rt 11:33 AM
Friday, November 6, 2009
i blamed myself infact, everyday, differently. at times i blame myself for the cause, at other times i blamed my own actions, and at some other times, i blamed myself for being uncertain, being hesitant, being too late. yesterday, i blamed myself on what i was doing for the past 2 months. am i right or wrong?
i really don't know. hate to say it, but it's true that i was affected by a simple sms, a tag, and a msn alert. i hate to say it, i hate to admit it. i feel so unnatural, and i have to act so unnatural infront of him. i just want to be myself, i seem to be hiding something. putting on a brave front, faking a smile, everything is just to hide my feelings. why am i doing this? why am i torturing myself? i used to smile whenever i like, laugh aloud whenever i like, cry whenever i like, yes i still do that infront of others, but not him. every action i do, probably my first thought was him. because of how much i hate my unnatural feelings and actions, i then decide to avoid. view & delete, automatically online then offline, and choose to ignore. i felt bad, i think i shouldn't do that, probably others will think that it's his fault, but i really dunno, i really don't blame him. but now, i felt something else. i felt wrong doing that, because.. is it by doing this i'll push him further away, i'm souring our own friendship, or probably let him forget this girl who has done so much for him but yet cannot be compared to someone else who has known him for only days.
i know that this kind of thing can't be measured in this way.
probably he feel himself when he's with her. i totally unds that kind of feeling. but a lie is a lie, a trust was broken ever since tt day they met. that trust that i've put in effort and time and heartaches to built up, was broken.
the happiest thing i enjoy, singing, becomes a pain i'm trying to avoid as well.
eliminate the songs we sang together, duets, combos, whatever; eliminate the recordings you recorded for me; eliminate the songs you praised me when i sing, eliminate the performance songs; eliminate the sad ballads; eliminate, eliminate.. probably there's nothing else i can do anymore.
it's a promise, it's the effort that i put in to choose that piece of cloth, and it's the time i made use of to piece everything together to make it a perfect gift, words that bring out my emotions,
when i see all of them around, these ran through my mind, how about him?
i doubt.
because to him, it is just an accessory, a piece of cloth he can wear on and look good in it, and something nice to look at and just forget about, and a place to sing & be happy.
what was it that makes me give in so easily?
all along, i forbid myself from doing so. i remain firm with my stand, but i didn't notice that i've fallen thru it gradually. i should have been firm.
happy's the word. it may be true for him, who cares.
as long as he's happy.
but, just curious. what was he thinking when he see the things around him? is there a little existence of me at all, or have i been cleared off his mind totally.
actually, i seriously don't care. i don't want to know. yet at times when i think of him, i'm wondering if he thought the same as me as well. but i know answers don't have to be spoken so blatantly, it's obvious. maybe if it's in the past, i'll think otherwise. but i can be so uncertain about this, i have to guess and all that stuff, shows that i really don't know him anymore.
probably that's the saddest thing, when the person you thought you knew so well disappear into thin air, within a moment of days.
11:11, the time i always see.
i used to smile as i look at this time on my laptop and hp's time, or any other digital clock's time. but now, i only stare. i can stare at it until it changes to 11:12. why?
最心痛的是当你对我说她是真的爱你,
我永远忘不了.
resuscitate my he♥rt 11:36 AM
